Friday, January 29, 2010

Just too much drama for me!

So yesterday's surgery was by far the worst so far. I should have known that because the surgeon told me that every time we do this, he doubles the amount of mass he removes. The surgery lasted much longer, they removed a lot of tissue and gave me demerol (sp?) to boot. (The demerol was horrible! I was dizzy til like 5 p.m. and the surgery was at 7:30 a.m.) And I'm really in the same boat as I was after the mri. I'll get the biopsy results Tues. If the margins are clear, they'll wait til I heal from surgery and then start radiation. (The only unknown on that front is that they removed so much yesterday that the cavity has filled with fluid. The surgeon said it will take a few weeks til that fluid is gone before they know how much is umm... missing? So there may need to be some sort of balancing act to do and I don't know what that will involve.) If the margins are not clear, then it's a masectomy. Really, this is just too much drama for me. I liked my quiet life...

I do have to say, though, that I feel like I have the very best family and friends in the entire world. The entire universe. The entire cosmos. I cannot believe how nice people have been and continue to be. Your thoughtfulness is overwhelming. Literally overwhelming. Notes, emails, cookies, dinner, bread, flowers, jokes, babysitting, thoughts and prayers. I don't know how I will ever be able to pay this all forward. But when I'm better, I'm sure going to try. Thank you all so, so much.

2 comments:

Elise said...

Cheryl your so happy sounding in your writing. We love ya over here in cold little idaho. Hope to see you in the near future. Amber is trying to convince me I need to come and see her. I just don't know when I have the time or if I want to drive with two kids in the car in the winter by myself.

bwrice said...

Cheryl - we love you and are thinking of you! We know from your previous posts that you're going to be fine in the end, but still, we hope the drama ends soon!!

Berrett & Tina